♥I just want to be with you forever and ever. BABY!=(

Sunday, March 29, 2009 @ 12:07 AM

Just want to post on Parent-teacher meet on FRIDAY!

Mr chia tell my mum that i am a good girl.
He also told my mum that it is lucky to have a daughter like me..
haha..i am not showing off ok..
Is just somethings that make me felt happy..
Overall result ..
I am totally disappointed by my results

English-E8 __(fail!!!!must work very hard to get at least a B3)
Maths-A1__ (keep it up!!!but you can do must better,jiayou!)
Chinese-B3 __(felt ashame to get this results,should work towards A1)
Science-C6__(felt useless can anyone teach me science??)
Humanties__C6(must work harder to get better results)
Poa-A1__(keep it up..wanted to get at least 92 at above!!)

That is my results..
Any comment about my results..
Please tag me and give me more advice to improve my results..thanks..
Anyway just wanna thanks Mr chia for giving me advice on how to improve my english..
Thanks a lot a lot..
Guihua wont hate anyone unless you do somethings that make me hate you!
Please treat me the way you wanted me to treat you!!!!!
i have to go sleep le..
tomorrow need to work at 9..
good night everyone!
sweet dreams!!
Zervon 12:46am

Saturday, March 28, 2009 @ 12:23 PM

I Just Don't Understand WHY??

Sometime things look easy for other to handle.
But when you are the one who are handling things is really hard!!
Somethings just look so simple and yet to other people it look just that complicated!!
When things seem simple when you handle it actually is hard.
When things seem tough when you handle it is actually quite easy..
Anyway bad news to tell..
Due to some problem i had decided to cancel the sing k outing on Pohlern birthday.
Which fall on the 18april.
Sorry guys my apology to you!!
I am alone at home.
Bear went out with someone and she dun wan me anymore..
I had being throw back in my fish tank ..
I am unwanted creature!!
Saded!
Coz that someone seems more important than me..
One word to decribe is SADED! totally upset!
guihua guihua..life is getting tougher and tougher..
Must be strong ok!!
I know everyone thinks that i am strong but that is only in the surface..
Deep in my heart are just that freaking soft and weak..
That is xiaohua or guihua or zervon??
No matter who i am ??
I am just that weak and useless..
I Know everyone care about me..
If i make your worry i am here by to apologise to you guys..
I wanted to be strong too!!
But i can't coz i am that weak!!
People around me some are happily enjoy themselves while i am still like a fool such a useless person!! thinking about something that is impossible!!
I will walk towards my happiness ..
i will wait too!!
i will be strong!!
i dun wish to be a fool again!!!
Many problem that are driving me crazy..
I am totally stress up..
I wish and craved for a long term break!!!
guiihuua12;57pm

Friday, March 27, 2009 @ 5:08 PM

I lost my way..
I should listen to them!!
Everythings just out ofmy control.
Why is my life end up to be like this??
If lying will make you feel better.
if lying will make you feel no stress.
If lying will make a big different in my life.
If lying will make my life much better!!!
I would rather choose to LIE !!!
Walking towards school will make me felt freaking stress!!
Schoolwork is in a big mess!!
Everythiings in my life is so damn fcuk messy!!
i just dun know how to control or do it...
Who can i call for help??
Who will listen to my problem!!
haix..
today was damn tiring day..
walk to school twice..
went to school and Meet the parent session.
later still had to go school to listen to all the talks..
haix..i had sleepless all those days since the common tests had started..
i just felt stress about the EXAM after exam,,
i just hate it!!!
Gods..please save me..
Take that nightmare out of my dream.,,please!!!
got to get ready my things ..
i still need to go school later..
byeee!friends!
guihua5;19pm

Thursday, March 26, 2009 @ 4:07 PM

Flashback to the past by looking at the past post..

We use to be very close with each other.
Now, we end up like an enemy?
WHY??
Where is our memories.
Are of Friendship that weak?
why?
Really miss the year 2007 the best.
I miss 2008 too..
when we study together and when we spend time together.
Hope we will get back to those days..
Really miss a lot..
Ah bai Ah bai..haha..called by Mr bala.
Friends are so close and caring.
Nowadays,Most of them are drafting apart from me.
misses-_-
how i wish i could rewind back to SECOndary 3 life.
which was filled with full of friends'concern and our bonding are just that close.
i really dislike my now current situation..
It is really like hell.
Can i get back my happiness again??
i desired rewind back to 2007..
People from my life come and go.
Will we be that close again?
Will you treat me like how you used to treat me?
Will you still care for me like you used to be?
Will you still like me like what you used to be?
Will you still there for me like you used to be?
Will you still love me like you did before?
Will you still message me like how you used to be?
Will you still hug me like you used to be?
Will you still look at me like you used to be?
Will you still called me and show concern to me like you did before?
Will we be like that again?
Will you be like me missing all those days that we used to be together?
Will you still get back to my side like you used to be?
Will you still bring back my smiles like you did before?
Flashing back to the past!
but looking at my currently life was totally different.
I really hate my life now..
If only you are by my side.
All is about Stress,school work,friends' problem,exam and problem after problem!!!
My life now is really sucks??
problem after problem!!!!!!!!
My life is now all full with hatred and regreted..
Why my life is like that?
How long will it end?
Misses!!
guihua4;45pm

Tuesday, March 24, 2009 @ 9:08 PM

Yeap!!
I brought my colour contact lens..
Four colours grey,blue,purple and green
I am so happy and excited!
Today school was bored.
Koh PohLern PS me.
But never she owe me a sakae.
After school went to Jurong point shopping and watch movie.
The movie HOTEL OF DOGS
It was a nice show is worth to spend to watch it..
If you had a time?do go watch the movie k?really nice show.
while if you like dogs.
Finally,i get to know the answer which i wanted to know long time ago..
Thanks a lot!!
I will try my best k?
But not now i just want to concentrate on my studies.
Maybe after O level??
If only i know the answer earlier.
if after o level i still like you i promise to jio you back.
i will try to do things to get you back.
provided in your heart, there are still me and love me.
I f i wont be that hurt..
Since is over then suan le..
Headache again..
Homework a lot.
Just wanna thanks poh lern for the blogskin.
I really like it a lot..
LOVEYOULOT!!
didi,dun forget about what you had promise me.
you better dun break promise if not i will hate you forever.
what you had told me before,please dun break it ..
what i promise you if i had the chance i will not break it.
if only i had the chance.
guiihuua9;32pm

Monday, March 23, 2009 @ 5:00 PM

I am still the freaking same..
Same feeling same sadness..
first time it is really that hard to forget??
how long would i take to forget about him..
i really hate this freaking feeling..
if only i could end now..
wadever i go there are memories..
can tell me what should i do???
please take me away..
You ask me once..will i cry if you leave me..'
now you should now the answer..
i had been feeling that fcuking sucks..'
hope time would quickly past and let me off..
i am really tired and feeling damn sad...'
my mind just can't stop thinking about you..
Can i ask what make me so damn freaking miss you like mad or can't stop thinking about you..
how long will it take????
one month?
two months?
three months??
...
...
....
....
...
one year????
that feeling is really sucks..
listen to the song sing by jay chou
make me cry and cry!!!
why people can pretend that nothing had happened??
why i can't???
WHY????????
WHY?????????????????
i will just wait and wait until the day come!!!
hoping and wishes are all gone
Gods please take that freaking feeling away from me!!!!!!
take me away !!please!!

Wednesday, March 18, 2009 @ 11:34 PM

Maybe i am really a foolish to believe you!!
Am is a real fool to really believe you!!
I just dun know what is going to happened next!
I just wan to rest as much as i can..
I am really freaking tired!!
Coz i really can't take it anymore!!
One word is HATE!!!!!!!!to me..
Dun just act infront of me..
Just be a REAL you!!
I dun need a person to act infront of me!!
i hate it
DUN AsK ME WHO it is!!
It is a secret for me only..
Maybe your are wondering who is it..
Even if you kill me i also wont tell..
Sorry..
I am seriously tired!!
Please let me off..
lovEYOUguys
i will just wait for the day..
i will wait and wait and wait and wait.........
guihua11;42pm

Sunday, March 15, 2009 @ 12:37 PM

i will wait!!
just wait for it to heal!!

Saturday, March 14, 2009 @ 10:44 AM

I am really tired!!
I really need a break!!

@ 10:44 AM

I am really tired!!
I really need a break!!

Friday, March 13, 2009 @ 2:39 PM

Yeap!!HOLIDAY!!!

It is great that holiday had finally came!!
i really need a break!!
I wanted holiday for a long time..
Everyone was like self declare holiday..
Come school,then after that ask parents come fetch them home..
School was bored!!
having three period of maths..
Doing all the maths work..
Later going down mac to do my MATHS homework..
Again is still mathematics!!!!!
Maths is driving me CRAZY!!!
Meeting bear at 3pm..
I felt so tired..
It was like a few weeks i had not being sleeping well..
whatever i do was all wrong and blur!!
Sometime what am i doing i also dun know at all..
I just dread that will happened!!
Will be home late ..
I have many homework to do..
English,maths,chem, chinese and many things need to study!!
I dun know how long can i hold on!!
I really hate it!!
GODs please save me!!
orh ya..
someone birdday is coming!!
just in case i had no time to post my blog!!!
i would like to wish HER here!!
and that is of course!......!!!!
my beloved jie jie(HONG QIAOTING) !!!fat fat one haha!!jkjk
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
Hope you will slim down soOn!!hehe=)
the most act cute one..haha!!
always bully me.
but she teach me many things too!!Thanks alot!
OMG...gtg..i am late le ..
byeeee !!
guihua2;55pm

Wednesday, March 11, 2009 @ 5:49 PM

MUMMY..JIEJIE!!

thanks very much..

i will be fine..

i will not hate them..

instead i should thanks them for letting me grew stronger ma..

i learn a lot of things too..

THANKS to him.=)

knowing so many things will not benefit me much too

in fact it will make me waste time to think about it..

i woke up le..mummy thanks for the important lesson

thanks for spending so many time just to write the post for me..

i am really very touch..

In fact, i felt that you are much closer to me..

i dun know that you care for me so much..

jiejies thanks for telling me so many things too..

really dun know what to say anyway THANKS

haha..thanks a lot..

i will study hard..
guihua6;10pm

Tuesday, March 10, 2009 @ 9:35 PM

PLEASE TAG BEFORE YOU GO!!thanks-_-

Missing him i can say is impossible..
i dun know why?
Even i sleep i can see him in my dream..
now, i also don't dare to sleep ..
haix..i simply hate it a lot..
i just want to concentrate on my studies only..
i am not in a moOd of getting into another realationship for now..
Maybe after O level then i will try bah..
i just want him to get out of my dreams..
To all my besties:
i just want him to be happy!!
i dun wan your to hate him or what??
is useless because i will not be happy if he is not happy!!
mummy..
i just felt unhappy that she interfere in our problem..
i just wanted him and i settle it tgt!!
i am not happy with what she had told me on satursday!!
HOW??????
mummy............!!!!!!!
To me it was just a nightmare when i wake up!!!
i hate it a lot..
i am tired le..
Goodnight peers!!
guihua is currently dead!
guihua9;56pm

Monday, March 9, 2009 @ 5:13 PM

A person can really act like one!
So please be careful when you are choosing a friends or bf/gf!
RMB to know him/her better
By finding out more about him/her from his/her friends.
So that you will not get hurt badly..
MUMMY..
thanks a lot..
but i dun wish that you will quarrel with HER
feeling much much better le after scolding all this out!!haix..
if you continue to scold her in your blog.
then next time your cannot go out together le..
i dun wan to see that to happened between you and HER!!
One thing i can say is that YOU TREAT HER MUCH BETTER THAN ME!!
you think she is more important than me.
you can left me alone and when to meet her when she is upset.
i can say so much things to me that is only to find excuses to cover for him.
Because your are siding each other!!
So you will try to make her out even you are tgt with me.
i will be strong and i will make sure i do somethings with it..
i will not be such a loser so easily..

Sunday, March 8, 2009 @ 10:25 PM

I am really FINE!!!!!!
I wont be that STUPID anymore!!
One word to describe me in the past three months is FOOL!!!
is BLOODY FOOL!!!!!
all right i am fine anyway!
Thanks for all the LIES
that make me grew stronger!

Friday, March 6, 2009 @ 2:10 PM

Same feeling, same me!!
I just hate myself to be in this statesss!!
I really hate it to core!!
FCUKKKKKK!!!!!!!
I will be strong!!!!
I need time time time!!
Maybe i really too naive to think that YOU ARE MINE!!
gtg study le!!
i will try my best to get a good O level results and i will prove it to you!!!
Jiejie thanks very much!!
i will work hard..
i will force myself to study and stop thinking about HIM!!

LABEL:I JUST DUN WANT YOU GUYS BECAUSE OF ME THEN YOUR ARE NOT HAPPY WITH EACH OTHER!!
ALL I WANT NOW IS THAT as long as he is happy then i will be HAPPY!I dun wan your to blame him or what because maybe i am in a wrong too=(! thanks-_- all my close frens and sisters!!! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!-_-

Wednesday, March 4, 2009 @ 10:23 PM

Another day le!!
i am still the same!!
when can i get you out of my head..
feeling freaking sucks..
i hate it!!=(

Tuesday, March 3, 2009 @ 7:31 PM

I am still very sad..
All i do was to cry and cry!!
I just can't get you out of my mind!
It is really tough..
Hope what you had promise me that you wont forget!
I really dun know what should i do?
Hurts!!!!!!!hurts!!
I really hope that we can get back to the past like what you and me wanted!!
Everything just come out of mind all is about our past!
I hate it!!
I get my chem 9.5/25!!
WTH!! i really hate to see me in this state!
When can i get back to the past me??
Not at this state whenever everyone see me then they will ask me are you alright?
The way they ask me i felt like crying!!
I really cannot take it anymore!!
I want this to end soOn!!
guihua7:45pm

Monday, March 2, 2009 @ 6:10 PM

i dun felt regret to be with you

@ 4:10 PM

昨天，我们分手了=（=(

我知道很多人都不希望我们在一起！

"分手" 真的很痛也是非常辛苦！！

i really dun wish that this will happened?

if you really care for me

please dun because of our relationship that will affect your impression in HIM!!

thanks=（

我现在真的很辛苦很辛苦！

有时真的不知如何是好！

我的眼泪只是不停的流下！

我真得很想忍但是我做不到！！

我真的很难受很难受！！

心就像是被刀割一样！！

考试时，我根本没心去做！

上课时，我心不在焉。

我还一直在想我们的那一段快乐的日子！

我才发现你原来对我来说是那么的重要！！

没有了你！我该怎么办才好！

无论我做什么我都做得不好！！

我真的不知如何是好！

当两个人真的爱对方的话！

是不是应该在一起！

对不起，我试去找但找不到那个戒指了！

我真的没有心情读书！

I really felt regreted to make that decision.

if there is second choice i will choose not to make that kind of decision

but i really had no choice since you are so tired..

sometime i do felt that we are like drifting apart from each other！

anyway thanks for the 3months plus one week's memory

我爱你我真得很爱你！

我真的好像哭！

桂花真得很伤心！

可以告诉我该怎么做？？？

桂花5*25