♥I just want to be with you forever and ever. BABY!=(

Saturday, May 30, 2009 @ 3:11 PM

Meet the parent session!!
Results one work sucks!!
English-----c6
Chinese-----a2
Maths------e8
science-------f9
humanities----c5
POA------c5

Friday, May 29, 2009 @ 2:00 PM

In the end what did i end up with doing so much and putting so much effort to it!!
HE IS MUCH MORE IMPORTANT!!!
Hurts a lot but at least i know the truth.
Thanks a lot for being so honest to me..
Thanks for lying to me all this while..
Saying that no one cares or showing concern to you!!!
While you still have HIM!!
You spent all your time with him..
Your relationship should be doing very well!!
You have him to complain and share your problem with??
You have SUCCESS in being a galfriend!
Ya.. I had many friends that show concern to me.!!
everyone come and ask me what had happened to both of your??
what can i say!!
saying that i did not think about it when i rant in my post!!
that is my feeling and as what i mention in my previous post that i can't talk to you face to face but to post here..
If i never post it
i really don't know how to mention or tell you..
That time i try to write at my handphone and asking you to read and find solution to solve our problem..
what you did was ignore it??
okay..fine since you don't talk about it..
if i never write it here will you bother about it??
Will you tell me all the true or your thoughts??
you may not be happy about it??
tell me that i put all the blame to you!!
then have you think about it??
What must you lie to me??
Agree to me that we will study later and once hearing that he is not coming down!!
and you started to telling me that you have a lot of stuffs to do??
While meeting you to school which the only time we can talk you choose to either talk on phone with him or listen to your MP3..
I know you wished to spend every single second,minute,hour,day.month,year!
Just tell me the truth and so that i wont become pessimistic..
Thinking all those negetive points!!
Looking at the postive side of posting this at blog!!
At least we know what are our problems.
Knowing all the truth
Knowing our feeling and thoughts
Knowing that at least we still bother about this friendship..
It shows me that actually we knows each other so little
Maybe what people say are right!!
Friends only calle you when they need help.
But no matter what i will still always be there for you
we had went through so many things!!
It will be a waste to end it this way?
Keeping it or dump into the bin..
YOU MAKE THE decision??
Coz i don't wish to make that decision
I am afraid that i will make the wrong choice!!
Once you have decided tell me.
zervon 30/5/09 1:35pm

Wednesday, May 27, 2009 @ 4:54 PM

Although knowing that you will felt unhappy after reading this post but i had no choice to blog here, because everytime i want to have a talk about this you will give me a innocent face that make me felt speechless when i had so much things to complain about it..

Words that will hurts you:

i know you want to meet him everyday

you want to see him everyday

but you got to be fair

It is so obivously that to you

HE IS MUCH MUCH MORE IMPORTANT

Do you still remember a question that i ask you:

"we both in different place And both need you at that moment

You will go find who first?"

And what is your answer?????

But your action did not show what your answer is.

so that is just a lie you are telling me?

When i ask you out to study

you argree at first

but when he say he is not going down then what did you do??

Finding all kinds of excuses

You can just tell me straight that he is more important than me

Don't make me felt that i am being cheated by you

hearing all those make you happy but in the end it was nothimg but lies

Telling me that i am more important which your action show likewise

Think about it since that day

Count how many day you go out with me??

Let me tell you

NONE!!NOT A DAY.

Is this call sister??

Has boyfriend and dump me aside

Fcuk!! i hate it okay..

It really make me felt that you are making uses of me...!!!

You want to go anywhere i had to accompany you

What about me

When i want to go buy somethings which will just took your around 1o minutes

But instead you choose to make excuses to go home.

It is fair?????

Sometime talking half way

Giving me your fcuk attitudes

Which i don't think that i should deserve your fcuk attitude

Really pissoff sometime

I do feel like give you my much more fcuking attitude

But i know i shouldn't because i am older so i must give in

But doing all this you took things for granted

Everytime when chatting half way you will give me attitude which i found that i shouldn't deserve it at all

Saying that i had change

You are the one who had change

You doesn't seems to show any concern

Like today you never talk to me the moment we meet until chinese lesson

you talk to other

Treating me like i am transparent

How it felt like if i treat you the way you treat me

When things really happened the way you don't wish to

Don't blame me

Because this is how you treat me

Sleepless for nights after nights to find ways to mantain this friendship

But i had seriously no solution

I am uselss,hopeless,worthless person

sorry to say all this to hurt you but i really can't stand it

I felt that you are getting more and more diffcult to understand

zervon is moody now

wish to be alone at this moment

zervon 5:33pm

Monday, May 25, 2009 @ 3:46 PM

Regretted to the maxi!!!
Maybe that is just a nightmare for me..
School was real bored..
Having chinese lesson for 7plus to 11plus..
So many lesson and of course i fall asleep..
Sometime to you it may be nothing but that does mean to me is nothing..
Different people have different points of view..
I just felt moody recently so leaving me alone when i am moody..
When i am moody..
To make me feel better is better to leave me alone and let me cry out..
When i cry it will make me feel better...
Crying is a medicine for me..
I am getting hot-temper recently..
When i am angry just leave me alone if you don't wish to quarrel with me..
I am totally out of control of myself..

*Christy jie jie

While gods is kind to me

I really thanks gods for bringing you into my life

Thanks for always be there for me

when i am crying on that day

Thanks for the call

Thanks for all the encouragement that you had given me

I feel really empty on that day

Feeling that nobody cares for me

but you are the person who make me felt that at least

there is someone who cares for me

Thanks for trying your best to console me

You are always the person there when i am alone

Always there to accompany me when i want to go anywhere

Thanks for always treating me so good

I know sometime i show you attitude

I am sorry about that

Thanks for forgiving me

Sometime you scold me to make me wake up

when i was cry because of him

Really appreciate a lot

**************************************************************************

I dun wished to let my parents to worried about me

so i waited until everyone was asleep

i went to kitchen and stared at the sky for a moment

and brust into tears

I cry like hell

there are many reasons behind the cry

Many problems including friendship,results and many more

yes! i cry for more than hour an half until i am really freaking tired

The moment i lie down on bed i fall asleep

i am really moody on that day,20/5/09

mei,thanks for the tissue paper.

Got to go!
bye!
zervon4;04pm

Thursday, May 21, 2009 @ 10:32 PM

Ok...i almost get back all my results but 3 pass so far..
I am disappointed with all my results..
Ya when feelind damn down..
What i usually did is cry..
Ya..cry like crazy last night..
Thanks jie jie for the concern..
It is really a big blow for me as my marks are horrendous..
I got to buck up a lot.
I am sorry i don't mean it..
But sometime people got to be selfish..
you can't be just thinking about yourselve and neglects other people..
sometime i was thinking Why should i bother someone who don't even bothers you or give a damn to you..
Maybe i should do back the same way..
I don't give a fcuk damn to you too..
since you can why i can't..
Just pray hard that my english and Maths paper 2 will pass..
Think i had to go for the after school programme..Fcuk!!
I detested it!!
I am sorry...
I don't mean it..
Anyway,friend!!Cheer up ya..
Give me a call when you need me,i will be there for you..
No worries, i promise you..
Now,i realised that you are crucial to me..
I just hope that you will be happy..
No matter what i will be there when you need me..a call .
You must be happy!!Coz you are my bestfriend and best buddy!!
Those who really show your concern to me..
I really appreciate a lot..thanks.. love you..
GO GO jia you!!
tml will be a better day for you!!
zervon11:03pm

Wednesday, May 20, 2009 @ 8:39 PM

Feeling damn freaking upset.
After school i went to Lot 1 to watch moive alone.
The feeling is like...
weird but the kind of feeling is just that different.
Headache,not feeling well and upset!!
stomache...
Why am i having so much problem???
Yes,i do cry and i cry again..Feeling much better after crying..
While waiting until 4 plus for the show to start.
I went to shop the whole lot 1!!
I just walk round the whole shop and tears just roll down my cheek..
In this world,it is really unfair!!
I just hate it ok!!
Get back some of my result,
Sad to say that i only pass 1 subject!
Even the subject that is supposed to pass but did not..
REALLY damn it!!
I am really distraught!!
Zervon9:05pm

Tuesday, May 19, 2009 @ 10:37 PM

Had been not sleeping well almost everyday
I am too tired,so i fall asleep during chinese listening com.
Then i anyhow write the answer..wonder how my paper will be..
I am REALLY TIRED!!
And the next paper is science,wake up by the teacher lol.
After doing the paper without checking and i fall asleep again..
So comeback and sleep for four hours..
Feeling much much better!!
Yes!! i am happy today as Mid year finally over!!
Sometime people do change when things happened?
I know i change a lot since then but have you think about what i had gone through??
That make me change?
You may not notices that i am getting lonely and lonely because you spend almost all your time with other?
Sometime what causes me to change it may because of you!
I change lots..
I mean you have him to accompany you!
While i really don't like to be a gooseberry!
The feeling is sucks,really damn sucks.
You may not know i really know my feeling but you got to spare a thought for me.
Sometime don't you notices that our friendship is drifting apart??
Don't you feel it???
I felt that way??
What is call bestfriends(sister)???
ask me??
I will say now i don't know!!!
i just know that thanks jiejie and sky and sandy for supporting me all the while.
need a rest..night
zervon10:55pm

Monday, May 18, 2009 @ 9:28 PM

Tml finally is last paper and that is my end ofstress for the time being!
Got to study hard for my chinese O level which is on 1st june.
Thanks a lot for the concern.
I will be fine!
Maybe so many things happened is to make me grew more stronger!
I will fight for it..Go go jia you!!
i can do it....yes i can do it!!
Maybe many things tend to prevent don't know is much much better than you want to solve it or think about it.
It will only add on to my stress!!
Maybe you may not be able to see me often as i will be busy preparing for my O level.
I just need a peace to study maybe just to study it at home or somewhere around singapore!!
I want to study!!!
zervon9:40pm

Saturday, May 16, 2009 @ 3:05 PM

Thanks Nitu!!love you.
Haha...ok for you i will work hard to it.
you too must work hard and we go ploy together ok!!
Remember i need you to grow !!
But now many things had happened to me.
I don't know what to do and i am getting fed up about all these things.
I had being sleepless for about three months!
I am really tired.
Things really do not turn well for me.
I just wanted to study hard!
Is it really that diffcult to do that??
I really hate my life now.
Problem after problem.
Ya....you might always see me with smiles.
But deep inside my heart your did not know how i feel.
I am really upset and heart pain
I really felt like giving up my life sometimes!!
Every single thing bother me.
I just hope that all these problem will go away and back to all these days..
I will be back to my cheerful flower again.
Back to those happy days.
zervon3;17pm

Tuesday, May 12, 2009 @ 5:51 PM

My maths confirm fail!!!

Wednesday, May 6, 2009 @ 7:25 PM

I am seriously tired of that!!
I don't wish to be continue to be like that!!
Can we solve it as fast as possible!!
i don't know how long can i hold on to?
zervon7:26pm

Monday, May 4, 2009 @ 4:00 PM

I did not get to sleep last night
I just don't know why i can't sleep!
I am really tired!!
Seriously i am really stress up by the coming mid year examination.
Living in this stress and pressure world.
People can really got mad..
I think i am consider one of them.
On the surface people are so nice to you.
But behind don't know what they are doing??
But,friends sincerely if you need me.
I will be always there for you.
Even though i can't help you solve your problems.
I promise that i will try to make you laugh..
I promise to sit one side sliently and listen to you.
School was dready bored.
stress up.
things that i had not study are like a mountain tall.
i am struggling!!!
got to take a nap..
guihua got to be strong and walk toward the 11 nov 2009!!
just a few more months to go and i could enjoy myself to the fullest!!!
zervon4:56pm